I know, I know...

I know it's been a while, but what can I say?

I have a busy life with work, school, and my mom's cancer appointments/treatments.

I just wanted to come on and say that I'm so excited and happy for tomorrow! Jan. 28th is my birthday!! I'll be turning 24 and, as a present to myself, I'm going to the Linkin Park concert tomorrow night with my pal. Plus I took Saturday off so I can have a long weekend!!

AWESOME!!!!


That is all. :-) lol

Finally back...

So I'm finally back after almost 2 months of being away. A lot has happened to my family. We've had mom get cancer, have a mastectomy, and currently she's going through Chemo. She's just lost her hair and she's wearing an awesome, cute wig. I can't even fathom the emotions and pain that she's going through and I feel almost hopeless cause this time I can't do anything to make her feel better. Except, of course, being there for her and helping her out is something I can do, but it seems kind of small and almost not important.

Other than mom, nothing much else is happening. Of course I'm going through emotional stuff because of this situation. But for some odd reason I can't really allow myself to feel much of the emotions. I'm a person who doesn't let out emotions much and at this moment it's to my advantage, since I want to stay strong for my mom.
But I can tell my mom is getting a little bit annoyed with how I'm focusing on her and not on myself... I would like to take care of myself more, but I just don't want to be rushing around everywhere on top of the treatments and appointments for my mom. Oh well, I guess nothing can be done at this time...

I just wish this whole cancer thing would be done with and we can go back to a semi-normal life. But when I think about that, our life has never been normal and is always filled with new things that make life just a touch more crappy, with happy parts in between. :-(

Cancer...

I found out yesterday (10/29/10) that my mom has Breast Cancer. This is really hard and it will be a long process to go through. On Monday we find out how far it's spread, which is how they know what Stage it is. I'm hoping that we caught it early.
My aunt is a Breast Cancer survivor, so I hope my mom can beat this.

Memories...

It's interesting how memories are attached to all the senses. You touch something and it reminds you of your childhood. You eat animal crackers and it remembers how you've eaten them for years. You smell something and it reminds you of daycare as a kid. You see a picture and it reminds you of how much fun you had in high school. Finally, you hear someone's voice and remember all that you've done together.

It's amazing how memories are attached to pretty much everything, except for your new experiences. The brain is such an interesting thing. I can't believe we only use a small portion of it. Imagine if we used most of our brains. What would life be like?

Again...

I'm a bad blogger again.. lol.

I just don't know what to write about. It seems like my life isn't as interesting as others. Who knows if anyone even reads this thing.

Well things have been going ok. Work and school pretty much rule my life, as usual.

I'm getting more excited as time passes. My two cousins are have babies! They're both having boys, so it's going to be really fun. One is due in a couple days and the other one is due, I believe, in November/early December. Let me just say that I'm taking the Auntie Leah thing seriously and I will be babysitting and buying them toys/gifts for a long time. It's going to be fun and I'm going to love it.

On that note, I will end with a picture that I gave my cousin, who is due in Nov./early Dec. I gave it to her during her baby shower. I said, "This is what you'll be seeing soon." Enjoy everyone!

Food

Although we need food to survive, I believe that it also become an enemy. We associate food as an important means of staying alive, but a lot of us associate it with comfort, love, and sometimes acceptance. We eat food when we are depressed, sad, etc. This leads to eating food when we don't need it and people over-eating. I admit that I do this and it's not good. But I think it's sad that some people use food to make themselves feel better, to the point where they eat so much it affects their overall health. I wonder if we lived in a happier world, would people over-eat less?


P.S.- again I tried to send this post to blogger via text message and it sperated it into 4 different posts. I officially won't use the messaging ever again!!!!

Sites....

Do you find that you have signed up and use so many websites that you can't keep track of your log-in information? Do you find that you are a member of a couple different sites where you write about yourself, that you find that you're posting some of the same stuff to each website?

I find that I'm kind of doing this with my blog here and another forum site where I have a journal. I try to keep them separate, but sometimes you just can't think up different posts when nothing is going on with you.

How about you? Do you do this?