So I'm finally back after almost 2 months of being away. A lot has happened to my family. We've had mom get cancer, have a mastectomy, and currently she's going through Chemo. She's just lost her hair and she's wearing an awesome, cute wig. I can't even fathom the emotions and pain that she's going through and I feel almost hopeless cause this time I can't do anything to make her feel better. Except, of course, being there for her and helping her out is something I can do, but it seems kind of small and almost not important.
Other than mom, nothing much else is happening. Of course I'm going through emotional stuff because of this situation. But for some odd reason I can't really allow myself to feel much of the emotions. I'm a person who doesn't let out emotions much and at this moment it's to my advantage, since I want to stay strong for my mom.
But I can tell my mom is getting a little bit annoyed with how I'm focusing on her and not on myself... I would like to take care of myself more, but I just don't want to be rushing around everywhere on top of the treatments and appointments for my mom. Oh well, I guess nothing can be done at this time...
I just wish this whole cancer thing would be done with and we can go back to a semi-normal life. But when I think about that, our life has never been normal and is always filled with new things that make life just a touch more crappy, with happy parts in between. :-(
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